You thought I cried for you when my eyes closed from the tears
And laughing you found someone new- I could never keep you here.
But in reality- I thought that you should know
those tears I cried were meant for me- I cry them all alone
For I knew in my heart somehow that you would never stay
but still I fooled myself to think that I could find a way
But in that laughing moment as I watched you walk away
Those tears were o’er my folly letting you my heart invade.
It happened without fanfare
No music drifted through the air
I realized without remark
Close on the heels of a weary heart
With bitterness fading away
I thought that I would be okay
Until what moved and took its place
Was the result of battles waged
Which till this moment I had won
Or at the least had held my own
But without crying, without tears
Without love, or borrowed fears
The one who always stood so strong
At last fell before the throng.
And final cognizant reflections
Realize climactic sentences
Do not preceded the paeons cry
But merely follow his sad life
And I that troubled paeon be
For life at last has broken me.
Remember when the darkness comes
And I’m no longer there
That you were one who withheld hope
When I was in despair
I wish not equivocity
But rather love is shared
Alas though we’ll not strive again
We’re cursed within this glare.
A fabled mystic long ago
Once spoke a solemn prayer
But quickly you’ve forgot it
And settled for pious heirs
Clinging to vestiges of hopes
So laden down with fears
You’ve lost the heart and mind to fight
As poisoned by the air.
So breath it in and breath it out
Pretend you’re unaware
Of who it was offered no hope
When I was in despair.
Forgive me for those foolish thoughts-
Ideas which leave me paralyzed
Forget all of my broken faults
that come and steal away my time
Conceal me from temptation’s taunts
or guide me though it’s mines
Then find me if at last I fall-
Restore my soul and mind.
You saw me but you walked away
You heard me call but wouldn’t stay
You thought I’d break but I’m okay
Actions proved what you won’t say
One day if we meet again
I’ll let you know when we began
That it was real for me but then
Face to face all this will end.
Looking for love in all the wrong places
Dancing through nights with nameless faces
Hoping for something more than what’s past
Maybe the next time true love will last.
But then comes the morning in cold emptiness
The night before but a bitter remembrance
True love is a myth or else just a dream
Hiding for years or so it would seem.
Then cyclical return of the bottle and more
Take two glasses, three- Then swallow before
the evening comes crashing down in a blaze
of passionate ecstacy- Everyone’s dazed
And as the night closes in on those lost
They deaden their minds to let hearts pay the cost
For while looking for love in all the wrong places
They spend their lives dancing with nameless faces.
“Before this last time that I leave
take I beg of you this key.
For it alone can free my heart
which I have kept quite set apart
within a stronghold so secure
might and force cannot procure.
Take and hold it here for me
until someone who is worthy
should venture in to claim its prize
releasing then this heart of mine.”
With that she placed that silver key
into the hand of Him unseen.