I must beg apology of my readers for this work. It is indeed as the title indicates and bears no discernible thread that you may follow through. I almost entitled it as another of my musings, however those I write with at least the semblance of consistent thought. This piece had no such consistency. If you look carefully you will note the change in cadence and tone, but also, the seeming incoherence as well. I submit that likely I should not submit. But that is the nature of my blog. To express where else would only be silence. Thoughts unspoken, words never uttered, emotions never conquered. Sphinx-like, stoic… Cryptic.
~ Cryptic ~
There was no love song never sung
Our hearts did not break when the sun
Broke upon the morning of a love we never had
We did not turn to mourning ‘you and I’ was just a fad
A passing moment lost to time and through eternity
A lasting focus of my life will never be on thee
I cannot feel the pain of love when love I never earned
For losing what was never owned cannot be felt or cursed
An empty vessel cannot despise its own condition save
Only if the possibility was given and turned away.
This story is not from a heart that broke because of you
But rather is the evidence of him who you once knew
For when what you had longed for was given you obtained
What you longed for all along knowing you’d never stay.
So lift your voice in singing melodies we’ll never share
I’ve lost the heart of feeling and fear I no longer care.
I wish that I could weep for you but all to often this
Emotion has been lost upon the stars that I had wished
I’ll say no more. I’ve tarried longer than I meant to stay
Ashamed before and broken ever fallen in disgrace.
While words unspoken every token turns from blue to gray.
Decipher this you fiendish mind declare what game I play
Reminders of a different life never to be reclaimed.
But once again enigmas have escaped upon the page
Amorphous victims of a mind whose thoughts dance on a stage.
But thoughts have no acceptance when brought to the light of day
If what is longed for through those thoughts keeps amity at bay.
Thus once again emotions have run intellect to ground
Crushed and broken by the swells of love through thunderclouds
You would not ascertain my reason though my thoughts spoke plain
Hence why should I be troubled when you don’t recall my name?
Back and forth we play these games but you’ve no reason why
Take the torches from the runner go on light your eyes
Engage in that most precious and enrich your life endeared
To that cacophony of solitude and peace that I can’t near
With strength I’d have lifted you up to the heavens
With swiftness I’d offer you wings to the distance
With love I’d have given all of love– wait let’s end this.
These thoughts serve no purpose but to dredge up regrets
Farewell and farewell
Till later is never
Live well and live well
See you never forever.